Tight Shirt
You cling to meÂ
I try to hideÂ
I stretch you leftÂ
I stretch you rightÂ
I walk aroundÂ
With a fake smile
Nobody knowsÂ
The pain insideÂ
You cannot cover
This is the feelingÂ
I deserveÂ
For being so fatÂ
And out of controlÂ
I’ve lost my heartÂ
I’ve lost my soulÂ
Tight Shirt
That used to fit
Thinking somedayÂ
I’ll rock that shitÂ
But all you doÂ
Is torture meÂ
I’m constantly checking curve
How you look on meÂ
I’m never pleasedÂ
With what I seeÂ
I’m filled with shameÂ
Disgust and blameÂ
I try you onÂ
I walk aroundÂ
I take you offÂ
I throw you down
Tight Shirt
I continue this cycleÂ
I start to breakÂ
I truly believeÂ
Nothing looks good on meÂ
I cringe and cryÂ
say,
Fuck it; I’m done
Throw on a hoodieÂ
And wonder whyÂ
Why?
Why am I like this?
Why do I suck?
It’s no wonder I’m singleÂ
Who would want this mess?
I go to the fridgeÂ
I open it wideÂ
My mind is reeling
With what I’ll find insideÂ
I start to eatÂ
I make a plan
My thoughts are racingÂ
I don’t sit; I stand
Until I come to
And look aroundÂ
At the wrappers and evidenceÂ
Of the binge I just hadÂ
I feel the shameÂ
The deep, deep hateÂ
I lay in agonyÂ
The pain won’t go awayÂ
For I have stumbledÂ
And down I wentÂ
ED won this time
I am spentÂ
I’ll go to bed
My stomach fullÂ
Diet starts tomorrowÂ
Well… there’s the cycle
I relate to this 100% thank you for sharing this. I’m still in my fight probably always will be. Most days I have to press the reset button.